Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Black and White You Know You're a Mom When-sDaze

Woah - talk about some multi-tasking, eh?  Yeah, I'm just that lazy good.  Today you get a super-duper 2fer deal from me... Black and White Wednesday hosted by Lisa at The Long Road to China (and congratulations, again, Lisa and family!) and Arizona Mamma's You Know You're a Mom When-sDaze!

And, in case you're not satisfied with three days of posting in a row, you can check out a guest post I did for my future SIL, Artistically Amy, wherein I talk about how I ended up as here as this crazy Zookeeper in my nutty life.  Check it out here!

So yesterday was Jack's first day of school this year.  We're at a new school and we already love it - the place is fabulous.  As a social, outgoing, lover of learning, Jack has been pretty pumped about the prospect of school all summer.  Taking him out of school when we moved was one of the hardest parts of our move, and we weren't sure if we were going to be able to send him down here until we found this place.  For days, Jack has been wearing his monkey "pack-pack" around and toting his Thomas lunch box around, talking about going to play with friends and do art and sing songs at school.

The lump I had in my throat yesterday as I dropped him off... or, rather, as I helped him find his way to the classroom so he could dismiss me, was far different from the one I had last year when I left him, teary-eyed and confused, in his first classroom.  This year, as I watched my son skip and bound down the hallway, proudly showing off his lunch box, and greet his teacher with a hug and high-five, I was the teary-eyed one because I knew that I was doing something right.  I had helped him to be secure and sure of himself.  I had helped him find the confidence to venture out away from me, knowing I'd always come back.  And I had helped instill in him a love of learning and friendship that makes school such a wonderful tool for me to use in his education.


But, as a Mom who has watched her son grow and develop from a tiny embryo to this three-and-a-half year old little ball of fire, I also know that I have done only that: helped him find those qualities within himself.

So it was a big day... for him, of course, but as always, for me.  I am so proud of him and so happy for him... And that's when you know you're a mom: when you feel tears of joy and sadness and just a teeny bit of nostalgia slide down your face on the first day of school.  When you're so thrilled that he's starting another chapter in his life and you can't help grinning for him, but you recognize how quickly his childhood is passing so a little bit of desperation creeps into your heart because you want him to stay your cuddly little buddy forever.




5 comments:

Sonora said...

That is so true! My oldest is going to kindergarten in just over a week and I am thinking I will be the one with tears in my eyes. It is amazing how fast they go from needing everything from you to being quite independent. It sounds like you have done a wonderful job in raising your son. Yay for the first day of school and brand new adventures!!!!

Sonora said...

That is so true! My oldest is going to kindergarten in just over a week and I am thinking I will be the one with tears in my eyes. It is amazing how fast they go from needing everything from you to being quite independent. It sounds like you have done a wonderful job in raising your son. Yay for the first day of school and brand new adventures!!!!

Tanya said...

Waaaaaaaaah...we miss you and your sisters, Jack!!! Oh, and your parents too! ;o) *muwah*

Arizona Mamma said...

Now I feel like a really bad mom. I consider it a major accomplishment when I leave the house without Addyson throwing a fit. I have no clue what would happen if I took her to preschool. I still don't think I will, but reading this post has me seriously considering it.

Jennie said...

You've said it beautifully! My son started first grade this year, with two years at the school under his belt. It is *amazing* to see how perfectly they mature and learn and grow into little men and women we can be so proud of! Congrats, Mom! You're doing a great job! (But I still cry...*every* first day of school!)

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